Monday, May 11, 2009

How Does One Let Go of Something So Close To The Heart?

With the baby’s imminent arrival, Hubby and I started worrying about the space at home. Our current place is a perfect loft for a couple. It’s definitely not big (which is good when it comes to cleaning) but there’s just enough space to be comfortable. Not an ideal location for a big party; yet enough for a mahjong party. However, with God’s great gift of a child, this perfect home is not so perfect anymore. We have no place to put the cot and poor baby doesn’t even have a closet cos there is simply no room for that. Daddy and Mummy took up all the wardrobe space and if we wanna share any of our wardrobes, we’ll have to do major packing and chucking. So now baby only has a ‘box’ which we bought from Ikea to call his wardrobe.
We think we can still manage to squuueeeze some space out for the baby. The real problem will surface when we’re back from Indon in a few years’ time (note that I didn’t put in a specific time frame cos MINDEF keeps changing their minds about when we’ll depart!). With the current plan, baby will be 4 years old when we return and by God’s grace, we’ll have another kid in tow. By then, we’ll REALLY have to move out of our current place. Because we’re so comfortable with the neighbourhood (it’s so convenient!), we really hope to get another flat in the same area. But leaving our current home will really tear at my heart. One of the perks of this flat is the view: totally unblocked! And at sunset, you’ll see the beautiful scarlet streaks that pans across the sky. I’ll be watching tv and mindlessly looking out when the beauty catches my eyes and enthralls me. If I wake up early enough, the sunrise gives a whole new dimension to the words ‘a new beginning’. With the quietness around me (less hubby’s snores) and the soft glow of sunlight as I look out of the window, you’ll learn that life can also be peaceful in a hectic urban jungle like Singapore. Sometimes, you’ll sense the anger of nature when the sky is all fired up just before a storm (by local standards, that means heavy rain) hits us. Yet on a good day, the sky is all clear and blue and normalcy is restored.

When we shift, we’ll be lucky if we get a unit on high floor. But the view? That may be something we’ll have to sacrifice. At best, we’ll get a fraction of what we have now. Otherwise, we’ll just be saying hi to the next block neighbours all the time.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Are We In Too Great A Hurry?

It's been said that things in life are predestined and there are instances when this is rather apparent.
Out of the blue last evening, Hubby and I decided to go to Sunset Way to have desserts. We normally will just go downstairs after dinner for a walk so that I get my daily exercise. But last evening we decided to do something different. So we had our desserts and was making our way home when Hubby noticed that a man was acting strangely at a traffic junction. Then it dawned upon us that the man was either having a stroke or fits. So we made a u-turn and went back to the junction to see if we can help in any way. Hubby wanted to send the man to the hospital but someone already called for the ambulance. So we decided to stick around till the ambulance arrived.
As we stopped our car along the road, it created a bit of traffic issue as the cars had to then filter to the other lane. Since I'm pregnant, I stood at a distance cos I didn't wanna be hit by the man (he was rather emotional and physical). As I stood on the pavement, I was observing the cars and passers-by. Nobody considered helping and even joggers who passed us by just continued on their way. Some of the drivers even started honking when the car in front took slightly longer to filter out. Is there a need to do that? It was almost 10 at night. Where are these people rushing to? Home to watch the 10pm news on channel 8? Does it hurt to just wait 1 minute? What if they filtered out in a hurry and got hit by an oncoming vehicle? Would they have regretted not waiting that 1 minute then?
Singapore may be successful in a lot of aspects. But when it comes to compassion, graciousness and human relationship, the nation still has a long long way to go. What are we rushing back and forth for? If we bother to just stand and stare, we might just discover meaningful things that have escaped us because we zipped right past them.
Meaningless, meaningless, meaningless....